This morning I’m mulling over the idea of letting go of waiting on the heroic moments. Letting go of waiting around for the character of a hero to suddenly appear within me.
I feel like I’m one to just hope that I’ll arrive to the character that I’m called to have and to just maintain that state of being effortlessly from there on. Wouldn’t it be nice to arrive to such a state? But what if we won’t? That doesn’t dare mean to give up on becoming who we’re called to be.
Take for example the proclamation that you might have said to a partner, spouse or dear friend that goes “I would die for you”. Those are some hearty words that have a lot of meat on the bones. They bear weight. They’re badass. The thing is, for most of us it’s unlikely that our devotion would be put to the literal test of those words (and I pray that we never have to be so harshly tested). Most will walk down life alongside others who we love without facing the challenge of taking a bullet for them. No, we face the challenge of living for them. When we say “I want to live for you” it doesn’t sound as epic as dying for them. We even feel an inkling of dislike for that idea. For me, my knee jerk response is to live for myself and if you’re kinda human like me, you’ll have the same adverse reaction to that as well. The intimidating thing about choosing to live for others is that it’s not always certain they’ll reciprocate such a devotion. Sometimes sharing life is a bore if not a chore. Wow, I didn’t mean to rhyme there but I’m keeping it!
I’m not speaking as if I know, but rather this blog is a bit personal processing for me here. So don’t assume you’ll read to the end and be able to enjoy the impeccable revelation of what it means to live for others perfectly.
I know we all will face those moments of where we must be the hero. This could be the moment of forgiveness against a bitter wrong made against you. It really could be taking a bullet. Or maybe it’s starting the difficult but necessary conversation you’ve had on your heart for awhile. If we are living with our necks our there even slightly we will have to face moments that require epic character. But here’s something to consider. What if we are waiting for our character to grow just as we are waiting to be heroes? What if we are missing on pondering our character in the mundane and cultivating it there? Maybe the big moments aren’t where the character is developed but merely proven. What if we’re just living to prove ourselves? I think we could be missing out if we aren’t careful.
We might want to consider the scary thought of having to be intentional in the daily to becoming a person of true character. I don’t want to reach the end of my life realizing that I have mostly the character of a person I don’t admire because I didn’t put in the effort in the moments that counted but looked boring so I passed them by.
I feel that we have to let go of hoping to be a person of integrity in a moment of grandeur but instead take it seriously when we are at the office when the boss is away that week. I feel that we might only have a handful of moments between now and our last breath where we could see that we were an epic hero and maybe even less than that. My point is that your character matters now. It matters today when you walk into work this morning. It matters when you pick up the kids from school this afternoon. When you say ask for forgiveness from your spouse. It’s in all of the mundane and unacknowledged moments.
My hope is to encourage you to know that who you are is only who you see in the mirror today. We might never be a hero as we picture heroes but we can have a choice to build and grow heroic hearts every day. We always have the choice of character.
So with whatever you are living for, live it well my friend.
With so much love,